(No) Mallorca
It´s summer, yet I just cancelled our amazing beach holiday to Mallorca! My husband and I decided to do this because we simply don’t want to risk getting stuck on the island. There are a few new Covid-19 cases there and what if they decide on another local lockdown? I can’t bear to even thínk about all the stress to get off the island, queues at the airport, fighting to get on a flight home etc.
Also, there are the new regulations of wearing a mask EVERYWHERE on the Balearic Islands. As of Monday, it´s obligatory to wear masks on the street, in public buildings, in shops and on public transport. The only exceptions are on the beach, at pools, when eating and drinking at bars and restaurants and when doing sport. This newly imposed rule has severely put me off to go there too, to be honest. Which might actually be the intention of it, to discourage holidaymakers of coming over on summer holiday and lower the number of tourists. This strategy def works as far as I´m concerned…
Home (Sweet) Home
So we cancelled both the hotel and the flights (which were fully refundable, so there´s that) and decided on a road trip instead. There go my airplane drinkies! I was kind of looking forward to those, although today I´m on Day 123 of not drinking a drop of alcohol so it would kind of be a waste to break that chain just for the joy of a few airplane drinks.
Anyway… We live in Marbella and although this is obvs a holiday destination by itself, I can not holiday here. I simply can nót fully relax at home. There´s grocery shopping, laundry and a million other things that I feel I should be doing when I´m at home. Plus the fact that we just spend 4 months at our house from which 2,5 in full lockdown. The last 6 weeks we stíll have spent a lot of our time at home together since there´s no school and the office of my husband is still closed. So… I think I just need to get the fuck out of here for a bit.
Valencia
We have now booked a hotel on a 6,5 hours drive from us, in the Valencia area. It is still fully refundable, as one never knows, but at least in case anything happens (like new lockdowns etc) we can drive home whenever we want. It´s a nice hotel near the beach and I CAN NOT WAIT to get there!! 10 Days of doing absolutely nóthing without any guilt with 2 of my favourite people in the world (my husband and daughter).
Just a rant
This article didn´t turn out very sobriety-focused, I do apologise. I´m not even sure what I´m trying to say. But this is what´s on my mind at the moment so I guess that´s what I write about. As it really is driving me crazy, this uncertainty of everything! Of going away on summer holiday, not going away, where to go, stay in Spain?, what if lockdown is being enforced again, when will life go back to normal, will school start again in September etc, it´s really getting to me…
I have had regular, small breakdowns recently and I´m getting the feeling that these are due to the lingering effects from Covid-19. Don´t you guys have that continuous feeling lurking on the background that you should be doing more than you´re actually doing?! Like, play with your kid, do more work, tackle all those super boring to-do list things like deleting old photos etc etc etc just because you´re home all the time?! This makes me feel really inadequate/dissatisfied with myself and grumpy. So very, very grumpy.
So yeah, I´m not feeling my usual (quite happy!) self. And I´m desperately hoping that this trip away will help to get me back on track.
This post turned out to be a bit of a rant without any purpose it seems but yeah… This is how I feel and I just wondered if you perhaps do too? How are Covid-19 and all the uncertainties that it creates impacting your day-to-day mood/mental health?
BTW: I obviously realise that there are WAY bigger issues in the world than going on a holiday or not (duh) but this is my blog in which I reflect on my life so there we go…
Would love to hear your thoughts in the comment section below 🙂
